If karma is a bitch and comes back to bite you, I’m wondering what did I do to deserve all of this??
Had a moment at work yesterday where the shit hit the fan, I left on a break crying. But I came back and tried to brush it off. I go home to find that my uncle is on 5 new medications after his visit with the cardiologist, mostly for his heart, and is going to see the cardiologist again on Friday. Also found out that my cousin is in the hospital breathing on a ventilator after having either a heart attack or stroke, not sure on which. My bf is angry at the fact that my mom bought plane tickets for me to see them at Christmas, after we agreed last year that we would be in Cali together for the holiday. (It’s my mom, how can I say no????? :/)

I get in to work this morning and found that one of my co-workers didn’t do her part in making up certain shots we sell in the office here. Soooo the other nurses decide they’re not going to make them, which puts me behind on shipping them out. (They come in sets of 5, and I had a lady or 4 of the packs this morning alone). I REFUSE to ship all this shit on Monday, because those are our busiest days after the weekend and I’m not putting myself behind because they’re pissed off and being a bunch of lazy ass bitches. Not only am I suffering, but they’re making the patients suffer as well, all because of personal office bullshit. I swear, I’d ask what else could go wrong, but my luck a piano would randomly fall on me or my car. I’m just so fed up with all the bullshit going on in my life right now that I could scream! I honestly just want to clock myself out now and just drive to anywhere. Don’t care if I know the place or not, just drive. I’m not in the best financial situation now either, and have been sick all week but still dragging myself in because I need the money. One girl gets the chills and body aches yesterday, my co-worker hooks her up with one of our BEST immune boosting meds here (flat out GIVES it to her, no charge or anything) and she goes home for the day, only to call out today because she’s sick. I’ve been sick all fucking week and I’ve been here every single day!!!! I honestly don’t know why I came in today…especially since I can’t get any of the shots out for those who order them. I had that feeling too that I should have called out, but I didn’t listen to it….dammit…..-_____- The nurses complain that they don’t have time to make up the shots because they have a full schedule today, yet they have time to stand around and talk bullshit, or take personal phone calls…..

Sorry for the harsh language, I’m just fed up with everything right now. I feel like no matter what I do, it’s not the right decision or I can’t get ahead in life. I’m honestly wondering if packing up my shit and moving closer to my folks isn’t the best option right now. Yeah it means I’m running away, but at least I know they will be there to support and comfort me no matter what.

Guuuuhhhhh…..stick a fork in her, cuz this turkey is DONE!!!!